irshaad kiya hai - 1

"bolne ki himmat hamme nahi,par kehna hum unko bahut kuch chate hai......saamne wo aa jaye to bol nahi payenge,isliye bas likh kar hi izhaar - e - bayaan karte hai " !!!!!

From a sister with Love

"u hav loved priyanka sooo sooo much bt no one can beat the love u hv fr ur parents..."






"mai kahi nahi jaa rhi....i am the woman of my words"

make voing system easier

I have a suggestion to improve india's voting system...

Government is issuing UIDs to every citizen .... india has 548 million users ....

The biggest issue we face in india's voting system is that even if we have 1 billion registered voters but because of hundreds of issues each citizen face , they can't even go to cast their vote....

But it will be a revolutionary step if we create a mobile application that may allow us to vote through that application by using UID that the voter will be having.

I guess that will be a very good idea in improving our political system.

dimagi locha...

naseeb me to chao thi,
uske aanchal ki,
man tha sone ka....
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par saala ek kutta gaal chaant gaya!

God bless her

today i am very happy...she has finally got something to cheer about.

she is climbing the ladder of her life slowly but steadily.....

our separation must have devastated a lot but now i just want her to be happy...

right now i am continously thinking of those three word,i want to scream them ,i want to hear those words myself....i want her to listen those words.....

i never wanted you to go....i love you.....!!!!

just one thing baby you should know....nobody can replace you....not in this life.my heart is yours and can only be yours.....!!!!

love u baby love u very much!!!!!

no more tears for you....!!!!

All the best :) !!!!

Anna Battle 1

someone somewhere has started something so that the sons(daughters too) of this country can have a medium to enlighten their deep thoughts.

What we do everyday,we talk,we bitch,we eat n we sleep.but dat guy Mr. Anna is raging against the light from dying.haven't u seen,

not even a single minister dared to come in those protests in delhi atleast,u knw y cuz dey fear us.....n dat too y cuz one 74 yr. old guy is man enuf to show dem who

got d balls buddy...

i am not saying jan lokpal is perfect,n its possible nothing will happen....but datz for sure that someday india is going to turn violent and nobody can stop

that from happening.

Now i understand y british ruled india for over 2 centuries....cuz we criticize never act....n i am also doing the same thing right now....

but i remember those freedom battle writers,i hope i can contribute....

but hey its democracy right,everyone has got right to do whatever they want...is dat really democracy!???

have a nice day :)

aakhir kya kami thi mere pyaar me

ke khuda bhi na mila paya mujse meri ruh ko

chhod du apne sharir ko

par kaise apni aatma ko khud se alag kar paunga

sambhalta nahi ab ye dil mujse bhi

is bhatakte dil ko sambhalti ruh jo nahi

jab jab roya hai dil mera

tab tab tuje paane ki chah kare ye dil mera

dard hota hai jab gujro har wo jagah

cchuta hun har wo patthar jahan se gujra ho mera pyar

sambhaalna chahta hun dil ko

par is masoom dil ko haar gaya hun teri khwaabon me

ae khuda uske har gum mujko mile

uske khush hone ka ehsaas bhi sukuun deta hai mujhko

is dil ki kashmakash me haar gaya hun

phir bhi dil ke bhavaar me majboor hun kyu

sambhalna hai is dil ko...

2day i am missing her so much.everything is over now.I am not even giving her missed calls.

she called me few days back,kash usse kah pata,chu pata usko aur keh pata....kitna pyaar karta hun tujse.....

i love u,i always have and will always be loving u for the rest of my life.I don't want u to forgive me,but i want to say that,i have always loved u nd no girl can ever replace u.

My body can be with the woman whom i will marry someday but my heart will always be beating for u.Even if i try i can't stop breathing u,i can't stop missing u,i can't stop loving u.

Miss u baby ,miss u very much.

love u !!!!

listening to : " dil sambhal ja zara phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu"

Fuck that man...

why is it that after breaking up,everywhere i put my eyes on,i feel love.

what the hell man.....earlier feeling love was the like God's gift to me and now i feel like as if zeus has put a curse on me.

I can feel it ,but i am not enjoying it anymore.I feel so pain now.I used to be happy but now i cant stop myself from shedding tears.Why on earth i am crying at all,its just a fucking love...i had it but now its gone,so get over it dude.I used to love romantic movies but it gets excruciating to watch them making love.

Its really strange to experience coin of love.....one side heals you and takes all your pain while the other side fucks you so badly,you may loose all your senses.....

I used to write poems on love but now i fucking hate that...why man why???

What is happening to me?I loved love but don't what mechanism is going in my mind that prompts me to just ignore it.........

I want to say that "i am happy because you are happy...",i have heard people saying that after breakups.....but what i think is,this is bullshit man..........nobody can see his/her ex hanging out with anyone else....i don't want her to get married with some schmuck....!!!!

i know she loves me more than me.....she devoted herself for loving me the whole time.....

I know she will miss me......oh God,i can't see anyone else touching her....just the thought of it tears me apart man........it just cuts me into thousands of pieces......

I love her and will always be loving her.....!!!!

I pray to bhagwanji...please bhagwanji don't make another earth......if you do that,life will evolve and so the creatures like us.....they may not look like us but they will again grow intelligence with time and divide the society into different castes....i just don't want my alien abhi to go through like the way i am feeling now.....

One planet is enough to deal with this shit.....

and one more thing i wish for is......whenever i feel she is going to get married with another guy,i feel pain in my heart......God should stop making hearts,instead we can use some sort hydraulic system to pump blood but no more heart please....it hurts....love sucks man,ya it sucks.....

so lonely...!!!!

i have my lovely parents with me,i have my best mates always ready to hear me,but i can't show them my intense grief continuously burning my soul like hell.

The air i breathe in is like venom to me now.Marrying her has always been an iffy for me.I alwyas knew that,but i ignored it.She has always been skeptical about us(getting together).

Come on abhi she was just trying to be practical and you knucklehead always tried to prove her wrong.

What could i do,i loved her,i loved her like i have found the jug of immortality.Yes she was and will always be the love of my life.Human is selfish and i am the biggest of all.

I am selfish for love,true love.She gave me that chance and i blew it.

"I am so lonely mom,i want to rest myself on your arms and cry whole night;you know why?because today somebody has taken her away from me.No matter how hard i try ,i am not going to get her back.She is gone,ya....she is gone forever"

I am sitting on my bed scribbling this shit on my blog,all i am thinking is her.

I am missing you baby,i miss you so much.

I am missing the shine of your eyes.

I am missing the desperateness of your eyes to hold me.

I am missing the first time you held my arm.

Tujhe malum hai na,mai kitna ghabra jata tha jab tu mere saamne aati thi....I am missing that also.You had always given me goosebumps.I had never felt that way like i felt the ambience of surroundings in your presence.

love is addiction...

9th january,2010 was the day when i touched the divine soul of my life,the soul that lives in her but has always been a part of me.

7th february,2011 was the day darkest day of my life,this was the day when half of my soul had left me forever,yes she is gone forever.

the only person responsible is me,i am the one who broke her heart.

i never respected her love,i always felt she loves me,but the truth is she has always been in love with me since i was born.i could say that,she had been in love with me from the time i was born.

my destiny has always been her,but i ....... yes i....only me,who killed her,pierced her to the bottom of her heart.

she can never be so alive again because i have dumped her,

she won't smile again because i have touched her lips,

she won't trust again because i have been a part of her life.

He shall never forgive me because i have just broken the heart of one of the sweetest daughters of Him.

she tries to be angry on me but i do know she hurts herself whenever she does that.

i only gave her sleepless nights and restless days.

i am sorry baby,i am really sorry for that...for not being the best love of your life.

i have always loved you baby and for the rest of my life i will keep loving you because you are the only reason,i felt LOVE.

LOVE is beautiful,its the best gift He can ever give to any person in the whole universe.

i wish ,if u can forgive me....i don't deserve that but still i am hoping for that.

if God gives me another life,i wish we don't meet again because i can't see tears on your eyes.

i can't hurt u baby...because i love u....i love u very much.....oh God please,for the sake of love,

please let people understand love......

mujhko jeena hai....chahe khud ke liye hi na sahi....

"may be your dream is not fulfilled...may be u haven't got the thing you have desired.......but you can help others to fulfill their dreams......live your life for others and you will find peace in your soul......u can dodge the pain of fire of your unfulfilled desire or love......:)"

CLOSE TO MY HEART.......:)

me + ashish + aman = a precious gem...:)


i must write this,i have to write this and i should....


we three met on august 2005 and since then we have been together......
the journey has been full of fun,assignments,bunks,ogling @ hawttys,rating girls,semesters,struggle,achievements,emotional breakdowns,failures.....more failures than success but still we 3 were always together......

when i was a kid i din have lot of friends actually i din have friends.....i used to play with a bunch of kids,but everyone in them actually always wanted something from me......i used to bring my bat so that i could play with them....i mean there always was some kind of give and take....i was funny thats y they always wanted to be with me.....but the thing was i had to keep smiling all the time even when i was in pain.....cuz i din want to loose them....i mean i cudnt share with them......but then there was this girl.....we used to look each other most of the times during classes......there was something different in her eyes....i guess she cared for me,that i never saw in any of my friends.......but suddenly she got transferred and i missed those caring eyes very much.....but now i see the same glow in the eyes of my two buddies....:)


for the 1st 2 yrs we weren't that close,i mean we were frnds but as compared to today,i know i have got another family in them....:)

there is nothing that can separate us.....but career is something that has made different routes for us and we have to go in order to survive.........

we share everything.....i mean everything.......except underwears we share everything lol....:P....


yesterday i got the 2nd most beautiful gift of my life....1st was ME COMING TO THIS WORld(thanks to my parents)......i got a framed picture of three of us together.....its precious to me !!!!

bas bahut hua....emotional nahi banna muje....cuz big boys dont cry....only girls cry ...lol..:P....

all the best to ashish ,aman,and abhishek.......:)

need some peace....!!!!

my last post was on 30th aug 2009.......

2day is 21st sept 2009......a huge gap b/w my posts.

i had nothing in my mind to write about........it has been over 10 months since she left......

she was a gud frnd,had many things in common b/w us.....i appreciate those moments i had spent with her......

people say opposites attract....i used to think like that.....but in case of "worth to die for" kind a relationship,the rule of magnetism doesnt apply.........

we dont talk anymore.......i dont know where she is.....but i wish she gets whatever she wishes for.......

"i need a GRAVE to RIP....but can't,got many responsibilties and 'm not a looser...."....:)


ps: listening to "yaroo dosti badi haseen hai....by KK..."

finally dot dot dot......

me : i m sorry

she : srry???.....ahem(waits for few seconds)....for what??

(i think she knows )

me : for that day....

she : which day.....(giggles)

me : come on....do u have any idea how much this is hard for me to do that....??!!!!

she : heyyyyyyy.......shut up abhi.......i dint ask u 2 call me @ this hour of time and i need to go to clg 2morro......tell me na....plzzzzz....

(she sounded stupid.........she enjoys  torturing me)

me : ok....i m sorry......now bye....jai shri krishna....

she : idiot!!!!!!.......miss you.....jai shri krishna....

 

ps: abhi ...what abhi.....go and watch hangover again .......she sounded nice, so just relax dude....

understanding the existence of life.....part 1

everyday i wake up....looks on my palm,chants GOD's name......takes shower and pray to GOD to bless me with the power to forgive myself.I can hide my sins from others but when l look on the mirror,i can see the guilt on my face.....

i do sins everyday knowingly or unknowingly.......may look simple to me but when i put their bits and pieces altogether,i realise what i have done.....

GOD gives me loan everday asking no pay back.....but that's not how it goes,i have to pay for my deeds.There is no way i can get away with that.....HE will litigate me and i am gonna have to pay for all my sordid behaviours.

I must know or find the reason for me to be here......i can't keep on doing what i am pursuing right now,i have to solve the puzzle of my EXISTENCE in this HOLY world....

I often ask myself......who am i??....what am i doing here??....who made this world??.....who made me??....there are so many people around here,why can't i exist in them too??......

can i have two souls??.....these spooky questions often bewilder me and confuse me.

If GOD exists,why do i have to suffer so much??.....why can't i have access to a life full of excitement and fun...??....why do i have to go through different  ordeals of life...???....

BECAUSE without suffering there can't be any compassion.....we all will be ignorant of the different facts and figures......

the ability of me  to break,analyse and re create things will make me different from others.....this can only come when i know my very purpose of existence.......the purpose of my visit to LIFE....!!!

the hangover......!!!

i am totally whacked out after watching this shit.......

is this really las vegas......??.....ahha thats y my cousin was avoiding bhabhi while i was asking about the casinos and bars.

ummmmm.....m pretty sure,he must have visited the strip clubs.......he is d biggest ass i can think of and a real PLAYER,who once did three timings.....!!!

hey is it really bad in checking out girls??....i dont think so......

ok....now m getting back to the movie....its a must watch movie guys.....

dont know about the dudettes but dudes are gonna love it......this movie can "spin your head right round all round",as FLO RIDA says.....

that tiger part inside loo was pretty awesome......the sight of a tiger while peeing can beat the shit out of anybody....what if the tiggy jumps on your @#$%&,o yeah that will be a nightmare......lolzzzz

oh come on how can i miss the wedding part......marrying a stripper for one night,oh bouy that should never ever happen to anybody........i hope that dint happen wid my cousin....."who cares even if it had happened",this wud have  been his answer had i asked him.

you are an idiot if u are still reading my post..........just go yaar and enjoy the movie.....!!!!!

something i have experienced....

do your own work and never expect anyone to help you or come for you.......

believe me ,the task will be completed more faster than you think with less obligations and persuations.......

happy or what doesnt matter....

happy anniversary abhi .....!!!!

holy shit....

i cant find my SIM....its an official sim and dad will get furious on that......

i better find it or i am sooooo doomed....!!!!!!!!

shit shit shit..........what d hell m i doing here......dhund sale nahi to marega!!!!!!