Tuesday, February 10, 2009

trust me its really hard ....

sometimes i do things that i never wanted to. when i accidently hurt someone ,i never realise that i have done something wrong.....but whenever i take a good look in to that matter and try to see it in a different perspective and put myself in his/her shoes,i feel that ya,i think i have done something really stupid and i shouldn't have done that. but i have already done that and it can't be reversed.
the only thing i can do is to apologise to him/her and ask for forgiveness. trust me its not a difficult task to say sorry,i can say sorry 100 hundred times,but do i really mean it???
i dont know...may be i dont...

i start feeling ke ,are yaar ye kya kar diya maine....and cant figure out the way to fix this.
i feel guilty and wish i can get the things right as soon as possible........but i dont know where to start...
but latter on i realised,may be i haven't looked into something else....may be i was just trying to figure out how to say sorry.......
in my opinion the best way to start is doing the most difficult thing......and that is to forgive myself....
unless i stop cursing myself and blaming myself for the things i have done,i dont desreve to be forgiven...but when i am sure that i wont do that again and i can control myself then 80% job is done and rest 20% lies in your ways of saying sorry(we are used to of saying sorry..isnt it???,everyone can do that.....even a garbage boy can say sorry).

"try to forgive yourself and then everything will be fine"