Saturday, September 24, 2011

dimagi locha...

naseeb me to chao thi,
uske aanchal ki,
man tha sone ka....
par saala ek kutta gaal chaant gaya!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

God bless her

today i am very happy...she has finally got something to cheer about.
she is climbing the ladder of her life slowly but steadily.....

our separation must have devastated a lot but now i just want her to be happy...

right now i am continously thinking of those three word,i want to scream them ,i want to hear those words myself....i want her to listen those words.....

i never wanted you to go....i love you.....!!!!

just one thing baby you should know....nobody can replace you....not in this heart is yours and can only be yours.....!!!!
love u baby love u very much!!!!!
no more tears for you....!!!!

All the best :) !!!!

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Anna Battle 1

someone somewhere has started something so that the sons(daughters too) of this country can have a medium to enlighten their deep thoughts.
What we do everyday,we talk,we bitch,we eat n we sleep.but dat guy Mr. Anna is raging against the light from dying.haven't u seen,
not even a single minister dared to come in those protests in delhi atleast,u knw y cuz dey fear us.....n dat too y cuz one 74 yr. old guy is man enuf to show dem who
got d balls buddy...

i am not saying jan lokpal is perfect,n its possible nothing will happen....but datz for sure that someday india is going to turn violent and nobody can stop
that from happening.

Now i understand y british ruled india for over 2 centuries....cuz we criticize never act....n i am also doing the same thing right now....
but i remember those freedom battle writers,i hope i can contribute....

but hey its democracy right,everyone has got right to do whatever they dat really democracy!???

have a nice day :)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

aakhir kya kami thi mere pyaar me
ke khuda bhi na mila paya mujse meri ruh ko

chhod du apne sharir ko
par kaise apni aatma ko khud se alag kar paunga

sambhalta nahi ab ye dil mujse bhi
is bhatakte dil ko sambhalti ruh jo nahi
jab jab roya hai dil mera
tab tab tuje paane ki chah kare ye dil mera

dard hota hai jab gujro har wo jagah
cchuta hun har wo patthar jahan se gujra ho mera pyar
sambhaalna chahta hun dil ko
par is masoom dil ko haar gaya hun teri khwaabon me

ae khuda uske har gum mujko mile
uske khush hone ka ehsaas bhi sukuun deta hai mujhko
is dil ki kashmakash me haar gaya hun
phir bhi dil ke bhavaar me majboor hun kyu

sambhalna hai is dil ko...

2day i am missing her so much.everything is over now.I am not even giving her missed calls.
she called me few days back,kash usse kah pata,chu pata usko aur keh pata....kitna pyaar karta hun tujse.....

i love u,i always have and will always be loving u for the rest of my life.I don't want u to forgive me,but i want to say that,i have always loved u nd no girl can ever replace u.

My body can be with the woman whom i will marry someday but my heart will always be beating for u.Even if i try i can't stop breathing u,i can't stop missing u,i can't stop loving u.

Miss u baby ,miss u very much.

love u !!!!

listening to : " dil sambhal ja zara phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu"

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Fuck that man...

why is it that after breaking up,everywhere i put my eyes on,i feel love.
what the hell man.....earlier feeling love was the like God's gift to me and now i feel like as if zeus has put a curse on me.

I can feel it ,but i am not enjoying it anymore.I feel so pain now.I used to be happy but now i cant stop myself from shedding tears.Why on earth i am crying at all,its just a fucking love...i had it but now its gone,so get over it dude.I used to love romantic movies but it gets excruciating to watch them making love.

Its really strange to experience coin of side heals you and takes all your pain while the other side fucks you so badly,you may loose all your senses.....

I used to write poems on love but now i fucking hate that...why man why???
What is happening to me?I loved love but don't what mechanism is going in my mind that prompts me to just ignore it.........

I want to say that "i am happy because you are happy...",i have heard people saying that after breakups.....but what i think is,this is bullshit man..........nobody can see his/her ex hanging out with anyone else....i don't want her to get married with some schmuck....!!!!
i know she loves me more than me.....she devoted herself for loving me the whole time.....

I know she will miss me......oh God,i can't see anyone else touching her....just the thought of it tears me apart just cuts me into thousands of pieces......

I love her and will always be loving her.....!!!!

I pray to bhagwanji...please bhagwanji don't make another earth......if you do that,life will evolve and so the creatures like us.....they may not look like us but they will again grow intelligence with time and divide the society into different castes....i just don't want my alien abhi to go through like the way i am feeling now.....

One planet is enough to deal with this shit.....

and one more thing i wish for is......whenever i feel she is going to get married with another guy,i feel pain in my heart......God should stop making hearts,instead we can use some sort hydraulic system to pump blood but no more heart sucks man,ya it sucks.....

so lonely...!!!!

i have my lovely parents with me,i have my best mates always ready to hear me,but i can't show them my intense grief continuously burning my soul like hell.

The air i breathe in is like venom to me now.Marrying her has always been an iffy for me.I alwyas knew that,but i ignored it.She has always been skeptical about us(getting together).
Come on abhi she was just trying to be practical and you knucklehead always tried to prove her wrong.
What could i do,i loved her,i loved her like i have found the jug of immortality.Yes she was and will always be the love of my life.Human is selfish and i am the biggest of all.
I am selfish for love,true love.She gave me that chance and i blew it.

"I am so lonely mom,i want to rest myself on your arms and cry whole night;you know why?because today somebody has taken her away from me.No matter how hard i try ,i am not going to get her back.She is gone,ya....she is gone forever"

I am sitting on my bed scribbling this shit on my blog,all i am thinking is her.

I am missing you baby,i miss you so much.
I am missing the shine of your eyes.
I am missing the desperateness of your eyes to hold me.
I am missing the first time you held my arm.

Tujhe malum hai na,mai kitna ghabra jata tha jab tu mere saamne aati thi....I am missing that also.You had always given me goosebumps.I had never felt that way like i felt the ambience of surroundings in your presence.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

love is addiction...

9th january,2010 was the day when i touched the divine soul of my life,the soul that lives in her but has always been a part of me.
7th february,2011 was the day darkest day of my life,this was the day when half of my soul had left me forever,yes she is gone forever.

the only person responsible is me,i am the one who broke her heart.
i never respected her love,i always felt she loves me,but the truth is she has always been in love with me since i was born.i could say that,she had been in love with me from the time i was born.

my destiny has always been her,but i ....... yes i....only me,who killed her,pierced her to the bottom of her heart.
she can never be so alive again because i have dumped her,
she won't smile again because i have touched her lips,
she won't trust again because i have been a part of her life.

He shall never forgive me because i have just broken the heart of one of the sweetest daughters of Him.

she tries to be angry on me but i do know she hurts herself whenever she does that.

i only gave her sleepless nights and restless days.
i am sorry baby,i am really sorry for that...for not being the best love of your life.

i have always loved you baby and for the rest of my life i will keep loving you because you are the only reason,i felt LOVE.

LOVE is beautiful,its the best gift He can ever give to any person in the whole universe.

i wish ,if u can forgive me....i don't deserve that but still i am hoping for that.

if God gives me another life,i wish we don't meet again because i can't see tears on your eyes.
i can't hurt u baby...because i love u....i love u very much.....oh God please,for the sake of love,
please let people understand love......