CLOSE TO MY HEART.......:)

me + ashish + aman = a precious gem...:)


i must write this,i have to write this and i should....


we three met on august 2005 and since then we have been together......
the journey has been full of fun,assignments,bunks,ogling @ hawttys,rating girls,semesters,struggle,achievements,emotional breakdowns,failures.....more failures than success but still we 3 were always together......

when i was a kid i din have lot of friends actually i din have friends.....i used to play with a bunch of kids,but everyone in them actually always wanted something from me......i used to bring my bat so that i could play with them....i mean there always was some kind of give and take....i was funny thats y they always wanted to be with me.....but the thing was i had to keep smiling all the time even when i was in pain.....cuz i din want to loose them....i mean i cudnt share with them......but then there was this girl.....we used to look each other most of the times during classes......there was something different in her eyes....i guess she cared for me,that i never saw in any of my friends.......but suddenly she got transferred and i missed those caring eyes very much.....but now i see the same glow in the eyes of my two buddies....:)


for the 1st 2 yrs we weren't that close,i mean we were frnds but as compared to today,i know i have got another family in them....:)

there is nothing that can separate us.....but career is something that has made different routes for us and we have to go in order to survive.........

we share everything.....i mean everything.......except underwears we share everything lol....:P....


yesterday i got the 2nd most beautiful gift of my life....1st was ME COMING TO THIS WORld(thanks to my parents)......i got a framed picture of three of us together.....its precious to me !!!!

bas bahut hua....emotional nahi banna muje....cuz big boys dont cry....only girls cry ...lol..:P....

all the best to ashish ,aman,and abhishek.......:)

dard maine jo tumko diye!!!!!!!!!

soni soni se zindagi thi meri

dhundhta tha kab wo ayegi

fir wo jo muje mili ek rah par

uske aanchal ki chao mujko chu gayi

wo kehti rahi dil me basta hoon main uske,

aitbaar na kiya maine uske batoon pe,

jhagarta raha jab bhi wo milne aati,

kaanto bhare pyar me wo roti rahi

dhyan na diya maine,

jab wo kehti rahi "hum chale jayenge",

kash mai khudko sambhal paata,

kash mai uske gum ko samajh paata

apne hatho se khushiyo ka gala maine ghot diya,

apne dil ke sukun ko bechen mai kar gaya,

wo achanak hai muje chod gaya,

in soni aankhon me aansu hai wo de gaya,

kitne aas usne mujse lagaye honge,

kitna pyar usne mujse kiya hoga,

jisne roshan ki meri zindagi,

uski aankhon ko dard mai de gaya

mere jaisa koi uski zindagi me na aaye,

uske hisse ke sare aansu mujko miley,

pyar me kisi ka bas to nahi,

par jisse bhi use pyar ho wo mai na hoo

angels protect us!!!!

hum sab 2 tarah ki chat se dhake hote hai.....

jo upar ki chat hoti hai wo sakht hoti hai...

wo hume har tarah ki mushkilo se bachati hai....

aur hume majboot banati hai....

par jo ander ki chat hoti hai wo behet komal hoti hai....

ek ful jaisi....

wo hume sehlati hai aur humara khyal rakhti hai.....

jab ek chat bhi dah jaye to dusre pe kafi bhar pad jata hai....

tab hume apne dono hatho se dusre chat ko sambhalne ke sath sath....

khudko bhi sambhalna padta hai....

"life gets too rude sometimes,but brings peace as well "

questions to Mr. Candidate....

1. have you ever seen that old lady with amputed fingers sitting in regal subway begging day and     night???

2. have you ever noticed kids entertaining and showing  gymnastics in red lights???

3. have you ever seen a cop abusing an old aunty in the middle of the street???

4. have you seen a conductor harassing an innocent girl and eve teasing her in a jammed bus???

5. have you seen seniormost citizens working in hotels for 50/- a day????

6. have you seen cops fighting over borders of their work,while a young man is dying on a pool of      blood????

7. have you seen a girl being abducted by 5 guys while her husband is looking helplessly???(most     bizarre incident,if any1 asks me)

8. have you ever visited a martyr's home,who gave his life for you and us??....have you talked to    his 6 yr old kid,who is still hoping to see his father after one more month of his(his  dad)servicing period????

9. have you met  the parents of a girl who has been sold to a brothel for just 2000/- ??

10. have you met the parents of a bright and scholar  student who killed himself just after he              failed in  an entrance  exam.....cuz he dint belong to a reserved category ?????

"i have got so many questions to ask,but whats the use....???......but i will ask and do whatever i can as a responsible citizen ".......

is raat tu na ja!!!!!

pyar ki ye raat hai
ho rahi barsaat hai
kaisa ye tera dar hai
jab mai tere sath hu


kaisi madhosh raat hai
tuje chune ka man hai
kaisi teri ye jidd hai
muje chodke tu na ja


dekhu tuje jate huye
ae hawayo rok le meri jaan ko
bas ye meri khwaish hai
is raat tu na ja


kaise tuje mai samjhau
band jo karu mai ankhon ko
tu hi tu dekhe har jagah hai
is raat tu na ja


char palo ki ye jindagi hai
do pal ki khushi de ja muje
reh na paunga tere bin
is raat tu na ja


dekhu jo teri muskan mai
fulo se behta jal ho jaise
chupa le muje apne seene me
is raat tu na ja

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i never met her
never saw her
never talked to her but
still misses her
the feeling is very different from
others
i feel for her
kehte hai na pyar me kabhi kaya aur awaz ki koi jagah nahi hoti
its just the bonding of two souls that matters
thats what i feel for her
but d irony is i will never see her in my life
i will have to keep her in my heart
wishing her all the happiness she can have
and bear d pain of not being able to
touch her

m i over-reacting????

y i feel so dejected after being ignored ?????
even though i knew it was going to happen.......!!!!!!!

seeking solace!!!!

i am feeling very low today,feeling like cry with someone.dont know why but today all the things happened to me throughout my life are coming back as a flashback to me,making me numb.

when i look at the things i have so far achieved and myself and try to analyse them ,i find like  i have not been able to fulfill my duties as a son.i feel like ,i have never been able to fulfill their expectations.

i have many friends ,most of them are really nice to me always ready to enjoy , party an all,but everyone needs a break from a social life,i also need a break.

i just want to sit with someone i can trust,i can love,some1 i know will shed tears when i do.

i want that person to support and back me for the things i am gonna do.i want that sm1 to speak to me through eyes not with words cuz right now i am unable to move my tonsil;it gets very difficult to move ur tonsil  when you are very very hurt or eyes are just about to explode.

i am a very emotional kind a guy,always ready to shed tears;until  eyes get dried up but only when i am alone ,i never show my emotions in public.

i keep everything within myself,even if its is hurting me a lot,i never reveal anything to any1.

its really difficult to get things out of me that are bothering me a lot otherwise i am very open.

i really dont know,y i do that.....if any1 asks me,i do want to share things, i really want to pour my heart out,cuz it really pains a lot inside ;hiding things that bother me a lot is really painful.

i think i am afraid of loosing you people,i feel like if i reveal my pain to you,may be you all will leave me and i will be alone forever....that's why i write posts and talk to shri krishna.

but i am fed up of being an asshole and introvert anymore,i want to change myself......i want to share things with others......but dont know who that someone can be.......i m dying to meet that person ,who will understand me and join all the pieces of me altogether.

if i dont meet that sm1 soon,i will surely die.....

i want you to feel me

i want you to talk to me

i want you to soothe me

i want you to share my pain

i want you to give your shoulder to me

i just want to close my eyes and fall asleep on your lap

                                        "i want to cry but cant cry"