i liked you since 11th grade
but didnt know if it was really love
i wished if we can meet again
but we lost contact
i met you in college
but got no jobs to impress you
i got d job
but u fell in love with another guy
i tried to be a gud friend of you
but felt the pain of loosing you
i heard u broke up
but dont know why i felt so suffocated
i rejected your offer of being my best friend
but still hoped if you ask again(i wished if u can make up with that guy)
i could hear your heart beat
but didnt know if it was for me
i tried millions of times to show my feelings
but didnt know what stopped me from doing so
finally i proposed you
but u said NO
i knew the answer
but why i felt so bad??
i never loved you
but i felt like the whole world stood still
what the hell has happened to me??
i never felt like that before
i never felt so possessive for anyone
why i want her to say YES for me
no no no.....its really terrible
i should not take advantage of her
she is a good friend of mine
i must stop...ya i must restrict myself....
she doesnt deserve me...she deserves more than that....
ps: i cant stop writing....cuz i love blogging just as much i love myself ....