going nowhere....

i liked you since 11th grade

but didnt know if it was really love

i wished if we can meet again

but we lost contact

i met you in college 

but got no jobs to impress you

i got d job 

but  u fell in love with  another guy

i tried to be a gud friend of you 

but  felt the pain of loosing you

i heard u broke up 

but dont know why i felt so suffocated

i rejected your offer of being my best friend 

but still hoped if you ask again(i wished if u can make up with that guy)

i could hear your heart beat

but didnt know if it was for me

i tried millions of times to show my feelings 

but didnt know what stopped me from doing so

finally i proposed you

but u said NO

i knew the answer

but why i felt so bad??

i never loved you

but i felt like the whole world stood still

what the hell has happened to me??

i never felt like that before

i never felt so possessive for anyone

why i want her to say YES  for me

no no no.....its really terrible

i should not take advantage of her

she is a good friend of mine

i must stop...ya i must restrict myself....

she doesnt deserve me...she deserves more than that....

ps: i cant stop writing....cuz i love blogging just as much i love myself ....